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Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Born Naked

Though i don't remember it as probably no one does it is a fact that i was born naked. From that time onwards, I tried draping myself in different sheets of caste, creed and society. But the fact remains like a unabashed monolith that i was born naked.
I saw my flaws myself but always tried to hide them from other. Flaws were of several kinds- physical, moral (innate in character) or societal. The image of self felt by me and how other see me was entirely opposite. I dexterously used " Saam, Daam, danda, bheda" to hide my flaws.
Sometimes I lied (repeatedly of course) to hide some mundane fact which doesn't even matter to me right now. I used all my might and God bestowed potency in hiding the truth from a hypocrite world which itself is naked. I could always feel the palpable fear of society. Always worried about society reaction about some of my idiosyncrasies, relationships or other worthless issue related to my life.
Though recently i read GITA and tried to be increasingly transparent in my behaviour and ways of life. I tried hard not to lie, not to hide anything from anyone. I lost so many things which really mattered to me due to mine this strange obsession with truth. Even after following GITA i have hidden a huge portion of my darkness from the world.
Recently due to some event i feel my nemesis has come. GOD did something which even if i want to hide from the world, I can't. This sudden incapacity of mine to hide anything reminded me of long forgotten bare fact that i was born naked. I had nothing to hide backthen. Probably truth is always naked. You can't cover it by fancy sheets of lies.
At this juncture after this sudden turn of events, I can only appreciate the words of one of my teachers" I am not ashamed of anything, not even nudity". Probably and partially because truth is always naked. We should have the courage to face the reality as it is. If we don't have this attribute we need to develop it because only " Veer Bhogya Vasundhara".